Yosh.

I know I haven't blogged for a long time.

I was kinda busy.

Sorta.

I think.

Whatevers.

Recent activities...

Returned from Melbourne!

Nice weather.

Especially sovereign hill.

You just gotta love it there.

Visit Melbourne if you have the time.

Awesome place.

Some idiot gay times with Gary, awesome times with Gregory, Daniel, Alphi and ChinEe.

Bought 3 shirts~

WOOTS.

:D

It's 12.29 now.

Writing since I cant sleep.

Class gathering is tmr!

Wait.

Today.

Yeah.

Today.

Haha.

And I'll be having floorball on Thursday.

Saweeet~

Hmmmmmmmmmm.

I came across some friends relationships surfing Facebook.

That's kinda the only life I had ever since the holidays started.

And I think I know where I put y holiday hmwrk...

It's gotta be near here somewhere...

Or in the dump.

Hmm.

:/

Anywayyyyy.

Where was I.

Oh.

Relationships.

Hmmmmmm.

Seriously.

How does it feel like?

I know it's supposed to be indescribable or sth.

But.

It's gotta feel like sth right?

Hmmmmmmm.

Sometimes.

You just gotta envy those in relationships.

They experience things one can never experience alone.

I'm not talking about the bad stuff like quarreling touch wood.

I'm talking about.

What it feels like.

To know.

That everyday when you wake up there is this person to look forward to.

It's not the same as crushes.

Crushes are just one sided.

And probably don't end up anywhere nice.

Except having your heart, well. You know. Crushed?

I was just scrolling past some.

And I can't help.

But feel happy for them.

Really.

Not everyone gets this kind of chance.

This. Lucky. Chance.

And it just kinda even warms your heart more if in your heart you think they are compatible.

While they go live their happy life.

People like me just sit on the couch and wonder how ya gonna spend your useless life.

Gaming. Eating. Watching tv. Whatever.

How I wish.

I could know how it feels like.

I know how it feels to like someone.

But in a relationship?

Nah.

It really never happened to me before.

A guy like me? Sheesh. Everybody thinks I'd just make a good best friend. :/

Well.

That's that.

That's showbiz.

I'd just make a good best. Friend...

It's like everyone is in a relationship.

But me.

Well.

At least not having to be able to e in one before.

Guess.

I'm just not fated. :/

Haha.

I shall just live.

As life takes me.

But wouldn't it be nice.

If along that drifting way.

Someone.

Would just grab your hand.

And somehow.

Drag you along.

Against the currents of time.

To a place.

That only the two of you.

Can be alone.

Just. The two of you.

I guess.

I won't get to know it that soon (:

Meanwhile I shall just try to be a good best friend. Rather than.

A lover.

Whatever.

I sound horrible writing this kinda stuff.

Especially since I havent experienced it.

Gahhhh.

Get a life Nigel.

Your alone life.

-Nigel Out

12.43pm

I'll find the one that I spend forever with.